all of your flaws and all of my flaws

so im enjoying the summery and pleasantly warm finland. the town im visiting is nice. i'm definitely enjoying my stay, im actually staying with my two sisters and i love them to bits. i'm not much of an outgoing visitor tho. i just lay on the sofa, the beach or the bed. have a morning run. eat good food. everything summery. well i also went shopping but what else is new.

i was so right about what i wrote before, the "choking feeling" disappeared right at the moment i stepped on the bus. sometimes you know you need to get away, have a mini holiday, but you just don't. i wonder why. i guess that's just being an imperfect human right?  it's definitely better to fade away than burn out. sorry kurt.

recently i found myself browsing every damn online shopping site i know. im in a desperate need of new clothes. i feel like renewing my whole wardrobe. i know the upcoming london trip won't do no good to my bank account and it's balance. here and there i feel like my life is finally getting on it's track so i don't even care to be quite honest with you. i'd rather blow all my money on things i love, than save up for the days of retirement and what not. that's just silly if you ask me. i never quite understood cheap people. that's just me, no judging. who are we to judge each other anyway.

next week will be so full of interesting things and changes i literally cannot wait. i can't spread the curtains of mystery too much yet, but im really excited about it.